Showing posts with label 31days. Show all posts
Showing posts with label 31days. Show all posts

Monday, 7 May 2012

Pet hates

Wow! I could be here a while. I have quite a few. But in the interest of not looking like a moaning Minnie I'll stick to my biggest four.


People without children in parent & baby parking bays.


They are there so I can get my kids out of my car a) safely and b) with the door open wide enough to get them out without hitting your car door and possibly damaging it. If you don't have kids or don't have them with you DON'T PARK IN THE BAYS THAT PARENTS NEED TO USE! Likewise, if you have your kids and you're sat in the car whilst your partner runs in to the store, park somewhere else you lazy sod. This is one reason why I started having my shopping delivered. As I get to within a mile of the store, I can feel my anxiety and blood pressure start to creep up. Yes, it is a stupid thing to get worked up about, but I do. I remember being called a "disgusting mother" by one lady after I had words with her about parking her 4x4 in the baby space when she didn't have kids with her.


Smoking


Never tried it. Always hated being around it. BUT my big hate is seeing parents pushing their children around in their strollers and the parents smoking. Or parents driving cars with their children in and smoking inside the car. I don't understand the addiction as I've never been addicted to it. So you can tell me it's hard to stop blah blah blah. But these days there is no excuse for not knowing the health risks to yourself and others who have to breathe in the second hand smoke. So why even start in the first place? Why would you subject your baby/child to that? Smoking is listed as being one of the biggest no-no's in keeping the risk of SIDS as low as possible, especially for parents who co-sleep. So I really don't understand parents who smoke.

 Whilst I appreciate the ban on smoking in public buildings law that was introduced a few years ago,{remember how awful it was trying to eat a nice meal and the people at the next table were smoking away}, the fact that restaurant/bar owners don't enforce the law that smokers have to be a certain distance from the entrance to the building drives me insane. I HATE having to walk through a crowd of smokers, especially when I have my kids with me to get in to a cafe or restaurant. Honestly now, if I have to do that, I find somewhere else to eat.

Babies drinking tea from bottles

Why? Gross! Kids are not meant to drink tea. It's bad for them. Also the only liquid that should be in a baby bottle is milk or water. Think of your children's teeth! I hate seeing Mums pushing kids in strollers and the kid has a bottle of tea hanging from his mouth. Now, I am aware that this post makes me sound like a total snob and very judgemental but when I see this, my automatic reaction is "chav". Wrong maybe, but that is how it makes me feel.


People who ignore the pay at pump at petrol stations

If there is the option to pay at the pump, why do I have to sit in a huge line of cars whilst their drivers are in the shop lining up to pay at the till, before I can fill up? I know the stereotype of Brits enjoying standing in a queue, but seriously, embrace the technology people!









Saturday, 5 May 2012

My 10 favourite songs right now

Since I don't have the daily commute to work anymore I don't listen to the radio very often, {and when i do its absolute 80's or 90's-hardly up to date} so I have no clue about new music anymore. So for the purpose of this post I turned to my iPod and looked at the most played playlist.

1. Burn Baby Burn by Ash {years old but this is actually one of my all time faves}
2. California Gurls by Katy Perry
3. The Fear by Lily Allen
4. Jessie's girl by Rick Springfield
5. Viva La Vida by Coldplay
6. Just the One by The Levellers
7. Ca Plane Pour Moi by Plastic Bertrand
8. A dustland Fairytale by The Killers
9. Window Shopper by The Parlotones
10. Arcadia by Ash

Disclaimer: I HATE Coldplay. This song is the only one I will allow to be played in my presence *shudder*

Also, these are not necessarily my favourite songs, just what I have been listening to lately. {except number 1,9 and 10. They are on my Fave list}

Friday, 4 May 2012

Fears

I'm scared of lots of things; never being truly happy, making bad choices being just two. But those are fears I can control and can do something about. I have 4 huge fears, and 1 is a major phobia. They affect my life to varying degrees.

Death and losing my boys

No one likes to think about dying. But it is something that we will all do. What scares me about it is the not knowing when or how. I often find myself having morbid thoughts when I'm driving, about crashing. Especially when I have the boys with me. I get scared that I'll be killed and they will be scared and alone in the car not knowing what is going on. Would I be aware of the fact that I have died or will it just be nothingness? Death at the hands of some psycho nut job scares me too. Not seeing my beautiful boys grow up, not being there for them terrifies me.

Losing the boys is my BIGGEST fear. How can a person just cease to exsist? I look at them playing, smiling, sleeping, laughing and think how can there possibly be a world without them in it? How would I deal with it if the worst happens? I'm not sure I would be able to. SIDS & Meningitis are the two things I fear will take my boys the most. Issues during my first pregnancy with Noah {I carried Group B Strep} meant he could have been at an increased risk of developing a life threatening infection.  {cue major new mum panic} With both of them I have used {still using with Benjamin} breathing and movement sensor pads in the cot when they sleep. Despite this I still periodically check they are breathing.

Flying

I used to love flying, especially take off. Then 9/11 happened . And despite my best attempts to not let the terrorists win, they have completely ruined my holiday destination choices. In the last 5 years we have taken 1 trip that involved a plane. And it scared me stupid. I hate the idea of not being in control, I hate that if it were to crash it means almost certain death. I often find myself imagining quite graphically myself and my family on a plane, and having the realisation that we are going to crash. How on earth do you process that? How do you deal with that situation when you have your babies with you? I have managed to convince myself that every time I fly the plane WILL crash.

Fortunately we live within driving distance of mainland Europe, and I love a good road trip, so we can still holiday abroad without having to get on a plane.

Injections/ Needles/ Invasive medical procedures.

For those that don't know, when I was 7 I had an accident whilst on holiday in Cyprus that required stitches. I was treated in an Army hospital, by Army medics who had very little patience with an hysterical, terrified 7 year old girl. To get 4 stitches in to my leg, I was given Valium, had a sheet wrapped around my arms like a strait jacket and had 4 people hold my legs down and apart. You can imagine how this must have felt to me.

The year after, I had an almost identical accident, again requiring stitches. I have NO recollection of the treatent, it was obviously so traumatic for me I have managed to completely block it out of my mind. My Mum tells me I had to have the treatment alone, and that the Dr's would not let her in with me.

As a result I have a huge phobia of hospitals, needles, injections etc. I will avoid all medical treatment if it involves needles. I have missed out on inoculations, I will not go anywhere that requires jabs before hand. During my last pregnancy with Benjamin, for the final 3 weeks I was in and out of hospital on a daily basis for pre-eclampsia testing, which involved blood tests and cannulas daily. This was not good for me. This phobia has affected my life to a massive extent. I can't imagine that I will ever recover from this phobia.

I am trying so hard not to pass my fears on to my kids. Especially the needle/flying one. Noah is so sure he wants to go on a plane. He keeps asking when we can go on holiday on a plane? It takes me weeks to prepare myself when the boys have to have their inoculations. It takes all my strength to sit and hold them whilst pretending I am not about to pass out. When Noah was 10 weeks old he was admitted to hospital and had to have a cannula. I had to leave the room. What kind of Mother leaves the room when their 10 week old has that done? It kills me when I think about that.



Thursday, 3 May 2012

My favourite quote

I can't pick an all time favourite quote so I am going to cheat a little bit and go for two. The first one isn't a quote so much as some lyrics from a song from one of my favourite bands; The parlotones. The song is called "Window Shopper", and it kind of sums up how I'm feeling about my life lately.

"You bury your dreams deep inside
It's up to you to breathe in life
The chemicals of goosebumps
The chemicals of butterflies in stomachs
It's up to you to realise

If you never try, then you'll never fail
If you never fail, then you'll never gain
And you'll be a window shopper
Don't just stand there window shopping

You're a secret master of disguises
Pretend to be happy, you big fat liars
The formula of "could've been's"
Swallowed up by cautious routines
Changing Mr. Compromise"

The second sums me up perfectly, and it's from a gorgeous woman, sadly no longer with us. Marilyn Monroe is one of my heroes.





Wednesday, 2 May 2012

20 facts about me

1. I'm right handed
2. I was vegetarian for 4 years in my mid 20's
3. I still love watching "Neighbours"
4. I suffer from Trypanophobia {the extreme fear of medical procedures involving injections or hypodermic needles}
5. If I could marry any celebrity it would be Peter Facinelli
6. I have never tried a cigarette or any illegal substance
7. I am a total Cadbury addict
8. If I could live anywhere it would be America
9. My favourite season is winter
10. My favourite smell is cinnamon
11. I am an Aries
12. I adore Starbucks Mocha
13. My favourite place I've ever been to is Yosemite National Park in California
14. I love my boys more than ANYTHING in the world
15. I never had a detention all the way through school {swot}
16. I met my husband when I was 18 in a nightclub
17. I wish I was taller
18. I flit between wanting to be a yummy mummy & being totally lazy
19. I need an image overhaul
20. I adore reading & wish I had more time to do more