36 going on 18

Yesterday was my 36th birthday!

I hate this! In my head it's still 1994, and I'm still 18. How can I be only 4 years away from 40?

I think this is the age my parents are in some of my earliest memories of them.

 This is not cool!

I think the reason I hate it so much is that I feel that at the moment my life is stagnating. Work wise it's pretty pap. There are zero part time teaching jobs coming up. So it's either full time teaching, which honestly is not compatible with family life. Last time I was teaching full time, I was pulling 60-70 hour working weeks. Working until 10pm each week night, and at least 1 full day at the weekend. How does working until 10pm work when you have two kids?  One of whom does not sleep unless I am sat with him, and even then he takes until 9/930 to fall asleep. Supply teaching just isn't regular enough, so the only other option is to work part time out of teaching which means a serious decrease in income.

We are not living where we want to be. But we are trapped. Until I can get a job and then mortgage we have to stay put. But Noah starts school next year so we need to be in a good school catchment by then.

I feel like I am in limbo. I can't move forward, I don't even now how to move forward. I have images in my head of how I want things to be but I don't know how to achieve it.

But we had a fab day out yesterday. We took the Boys to Thinktank in Birmingham. A fab science museum with so much for the kids (and us) to explore. We visited the Planetarium, Noah loved "kids Street" which had an amazing role play area - a cafe, doctors surgery, dentist, garage, massive water tray, dressing up etc...totally brilliant. I highly recommend this for a day out (this is not a sponsored post) The teacher in me was in heaven.

In the evening Tim and I went to see "The Hunger Games", which I thought was totally amazing and loved. It totally lived up to my expectations after reading the book, although obviously the detail was not as intense as in the book.

All in all, a pretty good day!

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